something i want
2006-03-24 | 8:51 p.m.

Here's my dilemma.

I volunteered for a job on next year's student council. I picked the position I did for a very specific reason, namely that it would give me an opportunity to work with people outside of my department. I have no real relevant experience, but I thought it would be worth doing.

Now I find out I'm not the only one who's volunteered for the job, and I've been asked if I would mind graciously stepping aside.

My first reaction was Damn. I really wanted to do it. And I did. Once I'd been told I had the position (and I had been told that), I'd started to get excited about it. And now to be asked to give it up? Well, that sucks.

But then I thought ... wait a minute. Why should I have to give up something I want, just because someone else wants it too?

Even if the someone else who wants it too is one of my best friends.

Even if I have reason to believe that the someone else who wants it too might be better at it than I would.

I don't know what to do. I think if I had any guts at all, I'd ask our student council president whether she would mind asking the other person to graciously step aside, since I volunteered first.

But we all know I'm spineless. So maybe I just won't answer the email at all tonight.

And maybe I'll sulk and fret about it and cheat myself out of the amazingly awesomely good mood I've been in all day.

Damn.

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