every problem has a solution
2006-03-25 | 12:34 p.m.

Okay. So about that dilemma I posted about last night.

I think ... I think ... I've found a solution.

See, I decided to sniff around the various university-wide groups and see if there was something else I could get involved in. I figured if I could get involved in something else, it wouldn't be so bad, giving up that one student council seat to my friend.

Guess what I found?

Apparently, our department is entitled to two seats on the council in question. This past year, the department had only sent one person, leaving the second seat vacant. But it's still there.

So, I sent that information to our student council president. An easy way to settle the question of who gets the seat. Plus, we get more influence with two sitting council members instead of one. And my friend and I would get to go together, good because we can bounce ideas off each other and really talk through the issues as they affect our department, and also good because it will be that much more fun.

Everybody wins!

I haven't heard back yet, but I'm hopeful.

All my life, I've had trouble reaching out and taking the things I want ... at least, when other people are looking. After psychoanalyzing myself halfway to insanity and back, I think I know what the problem is.

I am petrified that people will think less of me for wanting the things I want. That they'll say, What, are you crazy? What makes you think you're in any way entitled to that? And then they'll laugh at me behind their hands.

Neurotic. Stupid. But there it is.

The solution? I'm not sure. But I'm working on it. One day at a time.

I did apply for a lab job this summer. I'll bet that more students applied for that job than there are positions. I might *gasp* be rejected.

But I want it. I really, really want it.

So I sucked it up and emailed the prof in question. Sent her a CV and told her I'd like to talk to her about her research.

Maybe I'll get it, and maybe I won't. If I don't, you can bet I'll be disappointed.

But to stand up and say that I really want it ... that's a step for me all by itself.

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On an entirely different note:

Everyone! Tune in to CBC Radio One tomorrow at noon! Danny Michel is going to be on the Vinyl Cafe, playing a couple of songs from his CD that'll be coming out in June.

It was on Radio Two this morning but I missed it. Pah.

I'm already counting down until June. Counting down...

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